3AM and I’m gazing at the darkness
I slip deeper under my blankets
As fear suffocates me.
My eyes stay open
As my brain plays different scenarios
And my heart starts to pound.
I badly want to close my eyes
And wish everything away
But my annoying yet faithful friend keeps me awake.
I start to question
And I don’t remember how
But my pillow ends up wet.
Wondering why I feel misunderstood
Why I feel alone
Too many whys to end up with an answer.
I curl up
My knees to my chest
And I begin to sob uncontrollably.
I know I am all alone
And so I don’t care to wake a soul
I remain quiet yet loud on the inside.
I hear someone coming close
And soon enough there’s a hand on my shoulder
Then I realize I was so caught up in agony to realize the sun rose.