Constant battle

Lately a lot has been feeling like a constant battle

A battle of the fear of the unknown

Fear between letting go and holding back

Fear between being free and being scared

Anxiety creeping in as the night draws closer

Trying to choke me and drain me

Juice me up until I have nothing left

 

Lately a whole lot has been feeling like a constant battle

A battle between right and wrong

Between what I’ve believed in my whole life

And between what is really true

I’m scared to the core

My spine is getting cold

Paralysed by guilty

 

Lately a lot has been feeling like a constant battle

A battle between what I truly want and what they say I need to want

But you see I’m learning

I’m learning to let go and not hold back

I’m learning to be free and not be scared

And yes anxiety is not giving up

It still keeps me up at night

But I’m a fighter now than I ever was before

 

And yes lately a whole lot has been feeling like a constant battle

A battle between society’s make-up belief system and me, just me

I’m digging up the truth they tried to cover up

Chasing after what I want not what they say I need to want

And the only fear that’s driving me now is the fear that I have so much and barely any time to deliver.